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No picture today. I'm not in a picture place at all. I look at myself and wonder how much bigger can I really get? I may very well explode! I am oh so happy to be here in Thailand but I haven't felt good enough to do much of anything enjoyable. I promised my wonderful husband dinner at Outback to celebrate Father's Day and we haven't done it. I wanted to visit the Mall and shop around a little and we haven't done it. I want to take the boys to the Aquarium and we haven't done it. I need a haircut and I haven't called to make an appointment. I want to get a pedicure and I haven't gone. If Judah makes it to his July 21st c-section date we still have three weeks before baby to do all those things. If not, poor Stan may be waiting to do those things (well not get me a haircut or pedicure) once the grandparents arrive. Here are the latest pregnancy things:

-Tuesday I had contractions most of the day. My contractions feel more like intense menstrual cramps that come and go but they are definitely contractions. We'll find out on Friday at my appointment if this is causing me to start to dilate. For now if I don't have bloody show or my water doesn't break I will assume things are ok (TMI, I know).
-Pelvic pain, more groin pain and hip pain make sleeping very difficult. I may have to start taking short naps around the clock to get any rest. I tried a pillow between my knees last night and it barely made a difference.
-My stomach has been a little iffy since we arrived. I don't know if it's the change in food, anxiety or pregnancy related or the combination of all three. Today is better so let's hope that's over.
-I'm grumpy...can you tell?
-I was really excited about the pool. I had even decided that water walking would be the perfect exercise to get me a little active and build up some strength before the surgery. The pool has a section that is 6 feet deep and one that is 2 feet deep. So much for that idea. I must say though it still felt great to not feel the weight of my big belly.
-Tuesday night after having contractions I decided it was time to wash Judah's clothes. I have packed his bag now too. Hopefully being prepared will ward off early delivery.
-I'm looking forward to 3 weeks after delivery when c-section healing is going pretty well and I'm so in love with my little boy that I don't remember how miserable I am at this moment. I think that's the only reason women ever want to get pregnant more than once...we are allowed to forget how hard the end is.
-PTL a true end is in sight.

*ETA: After I pre-wrote this on Wednesday, in the morning when I could no longer sleep, I took a little mid-morning snooze and woke up feeling a)hungry and desperate for lunch and b) antsy and ready to get of our place and do something. We decided after the boys nap to head to the mall to shop a little and eat an early dinner at Outback. This made Stan very happy. :)