two years

(I'm not actually to writing this until Friday, but I still wanted to write it.  But I really wanted it documented on the first.  I just couldn't lie to your sweet little faces.)


It's been two years since we moved here.  Two years.  Last year at this time we had just arrived in Bangkok and were waiting on Judah so it was overwhelming.  Realizing that we had made it through our first year in a different country and the most difficult pregnancy we had experienced was a lot but there was also a ton we were looking forward in the weeks to come.  So this year it seems to be hitting me double.

I know we are exactly where we are supposed to be.  I, of course, miss family and friends, and some of the comforts I grew to love in America, but it has been such a blessing living here.  The challenge of learning a language that is as far from English on the language spectrum as can be possible, has been more than I could have ever imagined.  But more than that, it is also rewarding.  I have learned much more than just a new language.  I have learned to cook using basic ingredients and not so many of the convenience items I was used to--and actually love it.  I have survived two years without driving a car--watch out when I'm on the roads when we get back.  I learned to shop to provide for my family in a whole new way.  But most of all I have learned to lean on God in a way that before would have been so hard for me.

It is not all sunshine and roses, that's for sure, but it is exactly where I know we should be. 

We have just over one year before we return to the States for a six month visit.  There are already many things that I'm looking forward to.  Sitting on the couch with my Granny.  Hanging out at the beach with my mom.  Eating Mexican food...at a restaurant.  Walking around Target, Starbucks in hand.  But I decided back a few months ago when I was really struggling and homesick, that if I'm living for one Stateside time to the next, that I'm not really living.  So I'm not spending my days longing for what isn't here, but living in the present.  Letting it be what it is.  And loving it.