I Will Lift My Eyes

OK, so here we are, we've hit six months of living here. Statistically this is when people hit there first 'low time'. Statistics also show that when that time hits around a major holiday the 'low time' is amplified. I would say this is true for me. I've felt unmotivated to do school and some days to even leave the house. Not to the point where I feel myself getting depressed but just the need to get away. Add in pregnancy hormones and vomiting every couple of days (yes it has continued--my friend says that means either a girl or twins, we will varify the twins thing this week) and that just makes things worse. I am in countdown until our time to get away for two weeks to Thailand. It will be a great time of fellowship and relaxing and just being away from a culture that I am still learning to understand. All this to say yesterday was the first Sunday I got to join in with our group since late Nov. or early Dec. Between the boys being sick and me not feeling well the only time I made it lately was the Sunday I had children. It was good for my soul. It felt wonderful. And of course music spoke to me in a fresh way. This is a Bebo Norman song many of you will recognize but I (again) have to share lyrics that touched me so deeply.

I Will Lift My Eyes

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs you now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt

Your Kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me

Your Kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now

I hope you read it all the way through. I will add it to my music so you can listen if you've never heard it. It was such a wonderful reminder to me (even though I have heard the song A LOT) that I can't do it without HIM. I am crying out to HIM.